Completly Irritated!!!!

Before I start going on, THIS IS MY STORY! I WILL TELL IT IF I FEEL THE NEED, AND I DO!

I am experiencing the weirdest mood ever! I think most of it is because I kept to my word: I was honest! I answered a question and it changed things tremendously...OK...I know you are reading, and wondering, "Carla, what the hell are you talking about??" Let me go deeper on ya...

You know the last posting, it started off about some asshole, Danny...Well, things took a strange twist...As you can see, I was completely done with him as of May 31 at 8 something in the a.m. The time and dates on these postings cannot be changed once they are there...OK??? (MAKE A MENTAL NOTE OF TIMES AND DATES, THEY BECOME IMPORTANT IN THE STORY)

Fast forward to Thursday: Well, I decided drinking was something I needed to do after the things some of you know I have done this past week since I decided I was over him...Yeah...I was kinda bad...When I find someone I really like, and on top of that I screwed up with "black altima boy", I was feeling pretty ruthless...so, Lee (from Louisiana), and Sean (baby) know EXACTLY my game here...Anyway...I had to finish off the week with some alcohol in my blood...For those of you that don't know me all that well yet, Friday is "my Monday"...

Well, this thing that happened is kind of funny...You know, I meet alot of guys thru Yahoo Personals...Yeah, it's just another way to meet men...Well, a very dear friend of mine, John, whom I tell all my "stories" to b/c he totally gets me...I swear he's the greatest friend a chic could ever have! Anyway...I think he might not be wanting to be my friend anymore...

Here is what happened...Let me back up several months ago...I was just talking, telling him about this guy I went out with, a chaplin...LOL...and I can't even remember his name! But, he said, LOL...my roomate (which I don't know her name, even if I did, I don't know her, so, I'm not using her name...I don't know her from Adam, but she seems like an AWESOME woman...not the "norm" for Fayetteville)...back to the story, she went out with him just a week or so before I did...That whole thing is just hysterical b/c you don't think of really running into things like that in Fayetteville...ya know?

Well, the other night...we were sitting there and I am giving him (John) updates in the "dating world of Carla"...and I used Danny as where I started from...and how we had been out several times and he has pissed me off...blah blah blah...and the more I described him...LOL...he started questioning me about it...and his beautiful eyes lit up like a Christmas tree...LOL...yeah, Danny had been seeing her too (John's roomate)...WEIRD...now, in honesty...Danny and I only hung out like 3 times...BUT...he left me some message saying how he had been doing a thousand things...in truth, he was too busy making time to call someone else, I imagine, or visiting with someone else...it's not that he was with someone else, it's that the idiot wouldn't just say, "hey Cal, I'm not feeling ya...I like someone else..." This I can deal with...being dishonest, I can't! I don't care what you say...Don't fucking call me and tell me that you have been busy, don't send me damn IM's saying you know you are being a jerk and telling me you are fuckin sorry. When I ask what for? Don't tell me b/c you can't give me the time/attention I deserve...Somehow I became the "bad guy" FUCK THAT!

Rule of thumb, people: DO NOT ASK A QUESTION IF YOU ARE NOT PREPARED TO HEAR WHAT THE ANSWER IS. I DON'T SUGAR ANYTHING UP!!!

As far as me and my honesty, I choose to say this: No, I didn't put all my eggs into one basket, I did continue to date others...But, nobody asked me if I was seeing anyone...Never gave me the chance to be honest...And no, when I asked the question was he seeing anyone else, he probably wasn't...but the fact I asked the question, might have triggered a confession when he finally did start seeing someone else...DID IT NOT SEEM IMPORTANT TO TELL ME AS SOON AS POSSIBLE? NOOOOOOOO...I guess not. Oh, what a fitting song that just came on...Linger, by the Cranberries...

Fuck men (not Corey, Clay, Jack, Robb, Dave (back from Korea), Bob, the 2 Johns, Chris Snyder, Dave P., or Tom S.) If you are receiving this, probably not you either...Haha...