Feelings...

I'm sitting here tonight, this morning, whatever, in my room...completely bored. I have done everything I have had to do today. I have taken my walk. Gone to church. Read. The only thing I haven't done is talk to Robb the amount of time I wish I could have. GRRR! How exciting though! I mean, I have fallen for someone. One that is unlike any other. This rush of emotions is just bigger than I thought. You know that moment that just hits you like a ton of bricks and you decide you don't want to live without someone? It happened tonight...

He and I were chatting...I guess he fell asleep or got booted or something. I don't know...I knew I missed him then, but, OH BOY...nothing like the wave I felt later...LOL...I was laying there this morning about 3 a.m. and I was just awakened by feelings...I was all bundled up in like three blankets, although, it's like 400 degrees outside...and it was like KA--BOOM! It hit me. It hit me in a way it hasn't before. I don't want to live my life not knowing him more. Wanting him in my life.

It's odd. How you are just going along, minding your own business. Getting comfortable with things. Kind of like when things started developing as they did with Robb. Yes, even I had gotten a little comfortable, dating, being pissed off at men who just were not me, at all. Then I realized...this guy is a little more than someone I just want to chat with. He's just like me. He's a wonderful, intelligent, handsome man. Thing is, I trust him in ways I can't express. Why not me? I deserve to find something everlasting. I think he deserves to find something everlasting. God placed him here. I'm going to do everything humanly possible to keep him here. If you haven't guessed yet, I'm talking about Robb...

Now I can't sleep. So I wrote. Now I'm gonna read some more.

Love some of you...