Friendship...

The past twelve hours or so I have been pondering all of my feelings for a certain three I have written about on numerous occassions. Let me start by saying, these three best friends, they have to my favorite group of best friends. I know you are probably thinking, how many different best friends can one have? Well, I have the four best friends I grew up with. I have the one from college, and the three I so dearly love now...Each group carries different meanings, as they each came about in very different times in my life. I still keep in contact with each of these people, and see them all quite a bit.

My best friends who live here, well, they are great. Right now though, I feel overjoyed for one, my heart breaks as I see one of their hearts aching right now, and the other, I just want to protect.

I'm so happy for her. She has finally met the AMAZING man who treats her like the princess she is. It's all over her! She looks amazing! She mentioned last night that our friendship is unique in that we don't see each other everyday, some days we go without talking, yet, we just pick back up and we are good with that...It was so good to get the biggest hug from her last night...

My heart breaks for another. I could see the emotions change all over her face immediately. It's like, I know how she feels, I have felt it before. I wish I could take away her pain. I don't like to see people hurting. I can't stand it. I just wish it was me that was in that state of hurt. She is going to have to be the one getting herself over this one though.

Oh, and the mother comes out in me when it concerns another. There was just a little, yet significant bit of information and I felt like I needed to be the one to share this with her. It's hard to be graceful sometimes. I have had to do it on occassion. Grace is not something that is easy to muster up sometimes. Let's call it grace under fire. I know, that sounds a little dramatic, but, when it comes to affairs of the heart, IT IS DRAMATIC. I just find myself wanting to protect and guard her. No, she does not necessarily need an avenger, it's an assumed role for me. Alot of people don't see it, but, she really does remind me alot of me. LOL! A younger, better me. Use this quote by Mae West to describe it, "I used to be Snow White, but I drifted..." I don't want her to ever drift though...She's almost perfect the way she is.

All in all...I don't know if anyone can follow all that I am writing here...These are just thoughts I have about 3 of my most dear friends, I can't even get them down the way I want. I guess what I am saying, simply put, it's amazing how your heart can be minipulated (for lack of a better word) by feelings you have for your friends. I would do anything for these people. I would give anything to always be able to see the one as happy as she is right now, I would do anything to take the pain away from the one in pain at this moment...I would do anything to protect the other from the hurt she could possibly end up feeling (I'm sure she will be strong though...)

Love most of you...