Maelstrom of emotion...

Ok...Here it is...the good, the bad, the nasty...

I'm pissed...

I'm pissed first off at people who won't mind their own fucking business. Yes, I know, I don't really use profanity in my blog a whole lot...As most of you know, I feel it brings the level of credibility down a couple of notches, if you will...I use profanity at my leisure...Not when trying to get a point across...I feel it is better suited that way...of course, that is MY opinion...and we all know they are like assholes...We all have one...Now, back to the issue at hand--Cal is PISSED...

Life is all about choices...Some of us make some choices others wouldn't and vice versa...I don't have to answer to anyone...except myselfSo, unless you gave birth to me, please, don't bother...

Today has just been retarded...It went fast-AT FIRST...then things began to crumble...slowly...first the phone call...then the stupid people on 95...then my bottle of merlot made me look stupid infront of my boyfriend...I just started buzzing a little sooner than anticipated...I should have known better...I had not eaten all day...

That leads me to another thing...

How do I eat lately? Fuck if I know...I eat carbs, I'm good...If I don't, I'm still good...I put on a fucking pair of pants this morning, I was walking around this morning, and realized, I have to keep on pulling them up all damn day...WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON WITH MY BODY????


I just wanted to vent a little...

THANKS FOR READING (listening)...

Once more...

Once more, I have to write about my AMAZING friends...Once again, I can't imagine a time more propitious to change the name of my blog...

I mean...I can't describe all the wonderful things my friends have done for me...especially the last few months...Mother seems to think that it's simply because of the environments I have placed myself in. True, to an extent. I am from the belief we are exactly where we are supposed to be at any given moment. So is everyone else. I still am amazed that the good people in my life right now came along at the exact moment I was realizing some people who had been around for a while no longer have a place...not to the the degree they used to, at least...

You might ask...who are these people and WHAT on earth have they done? Let me just name a few of my fav's...Robb, Shelley, Amelia, Tiffany, Heidi, Dan B, Todd, Kim, and Amber. Now these people for very different reasons are some of my fav's...Robb, well, you probably already know, if you don't, go back and read my previous entries...I am convinced he is the love of my life...Shelley and Amelia...Just too cool, they made my summer along with a few others the best ever, mixed with their amazing cudding abilities (I have to include Heidi in this one!!!)LOL...Tiffany, I just outright respect more than anyone else I have met to date...Heidi (I am convinced she is a 'Mini-Me')...Her love for the language of "Carla", her dedication to speak my language and LOVE it...Dan B...I didn't really realize how much I enjoy his company until recently...all his kind words--I am on a mission to find him a good woman--any takers out there?? Todd...oh, boy...this one is weird...We so don't get along for anything, but, that's what I love about it...our ability to argue like it's no big deal...I'm not one to argue, but, I do with him for some reason...and Kim...her mothering ways, although she's only 7 years older than me, she still tells me EXACTLY what to do, and her carefree attitude mixed with her gotta get it done right attitude, which you wouldn't think would mix together to form ONE personality, just ROCKS! One I am especially for, is Amber...I am so mothering over her...Very thankful for her honesty and the second chance for a friendship that is very special...

WHOA! That was alot! So, for you fav's, please know, in case you didn't...I DO LOVE YOU!!! In case I haven't told you in the last day or so...Haha...

I can't do it though...I can't change the name, not yet...My blog is one thing that Robb loves...All my previous "man issues" brought me to him, all my failed relationships, along with God's help, of course...Any advice on whether I should change it?? I do love Robb so very much, and I am quite happy I had to deal with all the foolishness, had I not, I would be stuck with one of those yahoos and would not have fallen hopelessly in love with my Robb...Ok, now I am going to end this entry...I could just go on and on with how much I adore him...