My hobby...

Well, how the hell are ya?

LOL! Isn't that crazy how I started this entry off? I have decided...I seriously love writing on here...I really do...I should start writing about, what, I think is a hobby of mine--dating.

For whatever reason, I think it's really alot of fun. Do I want to stop dating random dudes and settle down, sure. Who doesn't at my age, but, I'm not pushing it anymore. I got a good talking to from someone who really does know me, despite the fact he claims my friends know me best, and that I have changed since we first met. The core of my existance remains the same. This is what counts, right?

It hit me last night, while I was explaining to my girlfriends, that there is another girlfriend present who is out with this guy I went out with like, less than a month ago, and I couldn't remember his name to save my life! Then, when we were snaking thru the crowd, I ran into some other guy, well, he didn't make me feel so bad about not remembering his name, he is obviously a power-dater too, he barely remembered me...he knew me when I had blonde hair. Heidi, the most precious person I have ever met in my life, says, "Carla, this doesn't surprise me, you have gone on a date with half of the men in Fayetteville..." LMFAO! To this, I'm thinking, "not yet, dear..." Well, then today, this other guy that has been wanting to go out with me, our schedules just have no meshed yet, said he saw Tabitha, Rachel, and I walking around downtown last night and couldn't get to me...Today, I'm standing there chatting with the "other Carla" and it hit me who this one dude was I ran into at church a few weeks ago...he looked familiar, but, I couldn't place it...I went out with him a few months ago...Just hit me today when I saw his girlfriend back at church, not sure what triggered that memory...Oh well...This is just too great...haha...


I just think that it will be enlightening for me on some level, and entertaining for my readers to read about the dates...I have decided...this is life, I'm gonna do well at what I do, professionally and personally. This includes dating. I'm just here for the ride...wherever it takes me...

You are probably first needing some explanation about Ryan. I love this kid to death! I had a blast being around him. Hanging out with him rocks. He's young though. Very young. I think I was alot of fun for him, as he was for me. I am still kinda over him...he's not wanting the same things right at this moment. I will probably write about him again. I'm thinking I don't want to see him again though...We are just not on the same page...No need to waste either of our time...

Well, I just wanted to warn you, give you a head's up, and some explanation about Ryan before you start reading all these date stories...LOL!

I'm pretty excited...I can't wait to go on my next first date and come back and write about it...

I have taken the advice, and I'm not putting too much of anything into anything, I'm just gonna let it come to me as it will and see what happens...who knows...

Now! I have to get ready for my date with Larry...

Love some of you!

Along came Ryan...

Now...Let me say this...I MUST HAVE BUMPED MY HEAD! In my previous post, I declared I think I'm gonna chill with the dating thing...whatever...I'm a power-dater. There just is no two ways about it...

I decided to chill with the dating thing. How could I possibly do such a thing? Then about that same time, I was asked out like 3 times. One just was the most boring date EVER. Another, I found out that there is murder in his family. How do you respond to that? He's ok with that act, too. Whatever. Not seeing him again! Then, along came Ryan...Well, Ryan came first, just I realized a bit later...

Ahhh...WHAT a breath of fresh air! Too cute, too sweet, too sexy! I am phsically attracted to him, like nobody else! I feel so creative when I'm around him. I think we are harmoniously aspected. I feel like the odds for success here are incredible. It's like a chord has been struck when I'm around him or even talking to him...I don't feel there is any "halfway" when I'm around him. I'm an all or nothing kind of person anyway, I am allowed to be this person, and it's just fine with him...he loves it! This is FAR from just a harmless flirtation...LOL! I sometimes feel like there is a balance that has been struck...Right now, I'm contented on all three levels, mentally, physically, and emotionally...

My latest conclusion...

Ok, let me first say...I'll most likely be crucified for this entry...I don't give a rat's...

I have had it! I have had it with dating. It's funny. I'm hardly the prettiest chic I know. I know I'm not ugly, but, just not the prettiest. Yet, I date more than any other chic I know. My girlfriends just sit back, cross their arms, and try their best to keep up with all the men. (Bless their hearts for trying, too...I really do appreciate your listening ears...I think a couple of them live vicariously thru me...LOL!) This is the truth, though. I'm not like some people I know who have tried to toot their own horn in the past--I promise. Hell, I sometimes get confused, too. I look at my phone and as I scroll thru the names and phone numbers sometimes, I have to really think...who IS this person...LOL! It's pretty funny sometimes, but, I'll have to admit, it's getting old.

I have made the comment to Tabitha the other day, I'm gonna lighten up on the dating...I told her that nobody really flips my skirt anymore (not in a literal way, please!) It hit me last evening when I went out with Marc. This guy I met a long time ago, for whatever reason we stopped talking...then, about three weeks ago, I saw him on Myspace, and said "hi"...he had been pressuring me to go out with him...I finally gave in and went. Hey...I had nothing better to do on that particular night...Ugh...I suddenly remembered why I stopped talking to him. NO CHEMISTRY!

I think I'm just gonna stick to getting my needs met. Sad enough. Buck meets some needs--total fun and free to say and do anything I please...I love this when I'm with him...he truely is the CUTEST man I know (or ever met).... David (the old guy), so sad he's so much older...sooooooooooo sad...But, he takes care of me, in ways I have never been taken care of before...A relationship with either of these two men is just out of the question...I just know what I am getting with them...I get taken care of, simply put.

I think I'm just gonna chill, stick with what I know, Buck and David, and hope,hope, and then do some more hoping that someone--meaning--ONE person--will come along and take care of all my needs...Will I be crucified for this posting, most likely...I'm just sick of the one trying...

Before you make any assumptions that I don't put forth any effort into either of these two men, just know I do. I treat them just as they treat me...I think I meet the same needs they meet for me...

Love SOME of you...LMAO!