The Weekend

This post is simply about random things from the weekend...

It is finally sinking in, the summer is here! I'm so excited. I think Memorial Day weekend always starts it off...

Free time to do whatever in the world I feel like I want to do! LOL! My third year here in this town is almost over, too. However, my life, in the past year has been like a roller coaster. The ups and downs, the twists and turns, and oh my, the DRAMA! Ahhh...The drama of it all...

I have made some of my best friends I have ever made in my life this past year...I have met, loved, lived with, and broken up with one of the coolest guys I know (I hate admitting that)...Ummmm...What else? I can't even remember all the drama of it all, to tell you the truth.

As this third year here is wrapping up, and a new one is getting ready to begin, I, once again, remember, some of my favs are leaving. Wow...I wish I would have spent more of my time with some of these people. I am going to truly miss Heidi. She has to be one of my most favorite people IN the world. Seriously. I am going to make it my business to see her though. LOL...I must visit...Wherever she ends up, I have to visit...Haha!! My other fav ho, she's not leaving, just getting hitched. LOL! Not the biggest issue...I just miss the single girl stuff, but, at the end of the day, I'm so happy for her. Now, talk about having your world turned upside down in a year's time, this chic has done it right! LOL! Love you, Shelley! LOL! Dan...oh, what a cool guy...what a sweetheart...He's leaving too...Man...

Then there are the wonderful women I have become friends with in the last couple of months. They are pretty amazing too. They have made these last few months more interesting, to say the least...I'm so glad we found each other! You guys ROCK!

What else...OHHHHHHHHH...Does anybody remember Mr. Alabama? I called him that in a previous posting back in...January 2006? His name is Bill? Well, this is TOO funny! Early this morning, I was minding my own business when I get an IM from someone named "John". Well, we were chatting, he seemed nice enough...LOL...Well, the first picture he sends me, well, it's a picture of him and Mr. Alabama. At first, I was like, wait! Which one is this guy? Surely, Mr. Alabama would remember me, after all, it's only been what? four months since we went out? So, I asked, and he clarified which one in the picture was him. I started laughing and remembered something one of my best buddies here in Fayetteville, Dan, said yesterday at lunch: "Carla, you know, you have been out with like, half of Fayetteville..." Let me see...Didn't Heidi make that SAME comment like a month ago when we went to see Hootie downtown, and I ran into like three or four guys I have been out with in a matter of just a few hours? LOL!!! Just is hysterical...I guess Fayetteville is as small as any other town...

I have somewhere to be in a few hours...I'll talk to most of you later...

Things I hate!

Ok, so, recently, I am thinking, I hate this, I hate that...there are so many things I hate! A friend just told me, man, you need to re-focus! I agree! So, this is one last sound off on things I hate before I become some truly positive person...(who hates lots of things, but, smiles and pretends things are juuuuuuuuust fine...)

1. I hate it when people don't know how to plan things...Like, have you ever known someone that does something they love but they do a really bad job at it? I'm such a super-planner, and the only thing that is of concern is making sure I'm on time! LOL!! Like, I hate to make something to carry somewhere based on a certain amount of people being there and then all of a sudden, the attendees has doubled in number!

2. I hate it when an employee assumes shit. I hate this with all I am. There is a reason, which they fail to realize, I get paid to do what i do! I get paid to make the decisions I do! Not them.

3. I hate it when I call a record store to see if they have a certain album and they say yes, and then you get there to buy it and they are out...OR BETTER YET, they can't find the damn thing. They are sure that they have it, it's on their new releases...yet, they have no damn clue where it might be stocked at. DAMNIT!

4. I hate it when people in glass houses sit around and throw stones. I hate it also, when people are perceived as holier than thou, yet they are satan in disguise. I'm not nearly as bad, but end up looking like the most serious bitch in the batch! GRRRRRRRRR!

5. I hate it when men tell you they don't want to date you b/c you said you won't sleep with them. When they tell you they sleep around and they enjoy their lives. I hate it when men drink Diet Dr. Pepper in such a way it makes them burp, on purpose, and then they think it's funny?? Hell, I hate all noises that come from the mouth area! I hate it when men are male whores and then think everyone believes they aren't...LOL...

6. I hate it that I am swearing myself to not hating anything anymore...

DAMN DAMN DAMN.

I fell in the Cape Fear

Hey, everyone!

Well, this weekend was one of very interesting discoveries...

1. I am convinced too much wine is not good for your skin. My skin is so dry all of a sudden! I think it's b/c I had WAY too much wine starting on Thursday night...LOL!

2. I am NOT the prissy chic everyone thinks I am! LOL...Well, maybe a little...Anyway, I fell in the Cape Fear and LOVED IT!

Here is the deal. I went out with Jas on Friday night. He's a little too introverted for my taste. He's an alright guy, definately HOT! I think there is a physical attraction there, but, that's where it ends. He's a little cold...

Saturday just ended up being a nice day of work, friends, and more friends...I ended up having a last minute wine-lovers party over at the house...It was good...Too much wine though! Wait, did I just say that? Let me correct myself. I had wine. Not too much though...I can never have enough...LOL

Sunday was the big day. Who would have ever thought when I woke up Sunday morning, I would have ended up with a SUPER cutie-pie at Raven Rock? It was totally last minute, not my style, either...I just was in the mood to be outside instead of inside at the gym. So, I called him and asked if he wanted to go, he of course, said, "sign me up"...(how gay!) Anyway...We went. I have never been down the the fish traps though. That is this place at Raven Rock where people fish. Off of rocks. I have always seen people down there in the middle of the river on these rocks, and I said, 'I wanna be there!' LOL...Well, I set my mind to it, and it happened. Oh, boy, did it happen. Well, I rolled my jeans up, I don't like ticks and stuff, so I wear jeans rather than shorts...Anyway, I squat down to see how deep the water was, so, I started putting my foot down in there...and then, splat...It was only about waist-deep, there I was, I was in the river! Well, I got on up, and began hopping from rock to rock and before I knew it, I was half way across the river standing on some rock...I loved it!

Well, it gets better...As we were walking back up the trail to leave, I fell flat on my ass! See, if you take your eyes off of where you are walking, between all the stones, and roots, you are surely to fall...LOL...I fell in the river, and fell down the trail all infront of my date...How embarrassing, how Carla!

Sick of the breakdowns...

Hey you guys and gals!

Hope your week is going well...Mine has been ROUGH! From employees, to boy problems. It never ends, I guess...I just keep praying, and hoping to realize, it's all part of some grand plan (or not...)

I had a date last night with C...This after a couple of dates with Mr. Hottie...Well, we got along great, until we were together...Not that we didn't get along, we just didn't "click" for lack of a better word. It is fine. I'm not attracted to everyone...This guy could have been good, there are good things about him, no, wait, wonderful things about him, it's just not there for us. NOOOOOOO, I'm not cutting him on anything, nope, he's awesome, again, there is a mutual agreement, there is nothing there...

Now you are probably wondering, what does the title of this entry have to do with anything...It's just the basis of my emotions the last week or so. I, for whatever reason, continue to have these breakdowns over Andy. I keep telling myself we were not ALL good...There were problems, several of them...But, the good things, I seriously miss...Things I have not found in one person, both before and since meeting him. Just makes me angry, and sad all at the same time. I will miss one thing about him, then it will make me miss all the other goodies about him...Then before I know it, I'm having some sort of sobbing session about how much I miss Andy, and how terrified I won't ever find all the good things I found in him in anyone else...

Someone slap me!

Love most of you...

Casual Friday and Flats...

Well, I got on this kick a few weeks ago while I was in the bank and this prissy bank teller, about mid-50's started talking about how women never dress anymore. I am with you there, sister! Geez. I got a very light-hearted e-mail from a good friend of mine, Rickie, that was picking on casual Friday. I love you, Rickie, thanks for reminding me...

So, check this out. I hate the fact our society is WAY too casual. If you listen to women in stores, you will most likely hear, "oh, doesn't this look comfortable?" Next thing you know, you are seeing them at the register, and they have all these "comfy" things...OMG...PLEASE! This totallly pisses me off. Walking around the mall, I see women in nothing but flats. When women wear heels, a good amount of them just bitch the whole time, and look ridiculous wearing them. Why did mothers stop teaching their daughters how to wear heels? Thank goodness my grandmother wore them, I am one of those who has a mother that despises heels. I'm lucky. I took the initiative to pay attention where I should have...

Casual Friday? Who thought of that? Why did they think it was a good idea? It's like anything else, you give most employees an inch, they will most certainly take a mile. They took several, society followed across the board, too.

All you see are jeans and t-shirts. The best, is when a woman feels dressed in jeans and a decent top. LOL! Whatever!

Even when I wear jeans, I feel so underdressed. Even when I wear jeans and a t-shirt, I'm in heels.

I get sick of women wearing crap though. Wear something other than jeans when you dress...Vacuum in heels...Learn the art...AND FOR THE LOVE OF HEELS, everything you do, try to do it better in heels (take that for what you will...use your imagination)--LMFAO!

That brings me to my next trigger. Flats. WHAT THE HELL??? Now, every now and again, fine, wear them...But, why do people have to ONLY wear flats? Your posture goes to shit when you do...It doesn't help any situation. Besides, heels, they make you feel sexy...Men love them, and women...LMFAO! They seriously envy the hell out of you when it's something you do well...haha...They wish they had the damn nerve...

Maybe I'm just a bad girl...I don't know...Who knows, who the hell cares...LOL! Just my opinion about a couple of things...

Last thought, I would seriously rather be dressed, in three inch heels, standing on concrete for 8+ hours a day, and know I look good, than to be standing there is some comfy clothes, that get NO attention...Maybe that's what it is about, attention...LOL...most likely! Who cares though...The fact that I always felt "overdressed" like 15+ years ago, and I still insist on doing it, probably would be a good indicator, I really don't give a care...

Love most of you!

A few things I miss...

Hey there...Yeah, I know, I JUST blogged...

I was getting ready, and I just started thinking, man, there are a few things I have realized that I miss lately...Some of these things are very brief, a few keep coming, and then some things I am anticipating missing...

First, the very brief things...I miss that smell of the paint I used as a child in fingerpainting...As I have been painting more lately, I suddenly realized, man, this stuff doesn't smell that great...haha...The other day I was sitting in Barnes and Noble and this guy passed by, and he answered the phone with "Hey babe, what's up?"...Robb used to answer the phone that way. Again, something I missed briefly. I have been talking to Robb a little more lately, and we are actually getting along like two civil people would. It's nice, he's too wonderful of a man for me to miss out on a friendship with, honestly.

Things that keep coming up: Andy. Simply put. I'm not sure if it is the lack of closure we had, or what. I don't know where he is, I don't know if he's safe. I know he was a punk, and our relationship was like just wild, but, I still miss him, like nobody I have ever missed before or since. I think I miss his honesty most. He was the way he was, dashing and beautiful (to me), and not just rough around the edges, outright jagged! But, he was honest. If he said it, I knew, and still know I could have always taken that to the bank. What he said sometimes made me want to cry (in a good way, sometimes, other times bad) and made me want to knock the crap out of him other times, or just hide under a rock (like the first TWO times I introduced him to my girlfriends)...He was just honest, and I miss that. I haven't ever found someone so honest before in my life, or at least nobody I have ever been so willing to trust...Weird.


I'm definately anticipating me missing some people in my life. They will just be missed like crazy, I know I'll always be able to write, or e-mail...I was walking thru the grocery the other day, I walked past an aisle, and there she was...Tiffany. We stood and talked for a few then said our goodbyes. Then it hit me...In about a month's time, she will be leaving. I doubt I'll ever be able to run into her at the grocery store again, as she is moving on. Hank and Amelia will soon follow. Russ is going too. Taking his new bride (new friend of mine) wherever they are going, I always forget. Heidi, my dear, one of my most precious girlfriends, ever is leaving. She too is moving on. Wow, there are so many people leaving, I hope I'm not leaving anyone out. Shelley, my other dear, the other most precious girlfriend I have ever had, she's not really leaving, just getting married (YAY!!!!)

Just a few thoughts about things I miss and will miss...

As you can tell, I REALLY love some of you...haha!

Jordan

So, I made the decision to stick to the "original" plan and not back out on Jordan. That's the responsible, "grown-up" thing to do, right? I should have gone with my primal instinct and gone ahead and seen R.H. (just joking, I think I did the right thing...I'm too terrified of Kharma to not do otherwise...)

Uck. This is all I can say about some dude that was very nice. Too nice. Too nice, and not comfortable with dating. I guess some people have hangups about dates, hell if I know why though. Have you ever met someone that thought about everything they said before they said it? They were trying so hard to say the right things so hard they barely even talked?

Goodness, well, this left plenty of room for me to go on and on about everything under the sun trying to crack his shell. He probably thinks I'm some "crazy lady" for just talking and talking and talking, as you all know I can...What can I say? I'm a self-proclaimed "Chatty Cathy"...Well, things got no better, so, by the end of dinner, I couldn't take it. I did what I could. I tried my best.

One thing that did drive me insane, and I'm not sure if this wore on my patience enough to finish justifying the fact I was ready to go or not...He smacked just before he said anything. At the beginning of every sentence there was a "smack" sound he made...AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! That seriously drove me nuts!

So, enough about that. I think I'm just going to veg tonight, date-free! My next date, which will be a BIG one is Tuesday night...It's with Mladin (pronounced like Alladin, sp??? but add an "M" to the front) I have been waiting on this date for a while. R.H. will have to be at the earliest, next Wed. or Thurs.

Have a lovely weekend...Love some of you!

Palmer

Hiiiiiiiiiii guys...

Now, this date with Palmer, very interesting...I have to admit, I think Liz was right when she said one thing: Men lie about their height. She claims to say, men always say they are two inches taller than they really are. I'm inclined to buy what she is selling here. This dude told me he was 5'7. No way was he that tall. He was much shorter. I'm short as all...I'm 5'7. Thing is, I'm always in heels. ALWAYS in heels. I'm not trying to change this either. Everything I do, I do better in heels. HAHA!

Well...I appreciated his maturity, at least. He ordered for me, that was nice. He drank wine, that was nice, got my chair, that was nice. Aside from that, he's not for me.

I realized this when he told me it was a deal-breaker for him that I had made it crystal clear I would not be having sex with him. I just thought that was horrible! I had dinner with him. I did agree to that much. I probably don't wanna see this one again.

Now, I'm in a fix. I have set up a date with Jordan, and now RH (super hottie-machottie) wants to go out too...What to do, what to do. I hate to leave a cliff-hanger here...I guess you will just have to read later to see which one I actually go out with...(maybe both-in one night...LMFAO!)

LOVE SOME OF YOU!

Larry

Ok, so the date with Larry was wonderful.

First off, let me say, he's hotter than hell! OMG! Larry, Larry, Larry.

He's way out of my league, I'm thinking, but we had a wonderful dinner, we watched a movie afterwards, and the kiss...REMARKABE. Matt says he looks gay. What does Matt know? Matt thinks everyone looks gay, including his sister Jake. LMFAO!

Anyway, I guess I will see him again soon. I need to go ahead and pencil him in...First available would be...Next Thursday...Should be enough time to make me look like I'm not 'Miss Psycho, have-to-see-you immediately chic'...Whatcha think?

This is too much fun!

Next date: Tonight with Palmer. We'll see what happens with that one...